I had a little bit of a breakdown on Tuesday afternoon.
This week, as all of your children head off to school, I've been thinking about this last year with Alex at home with me and I don't know why but I decided to check and see which elementary school he would be going to next year.
And that's when I saw it.
ALL DAY KINDERGARTEN!
I immediately had a panic attack and started crying (i'm still crying) because I can't imagine Alex going to school all day when he's only 5 and has never been away from me. I'm sure that he's going to be fine and that they help him do everything and show him where the lunch room is but I'm just freaking out!
I think I know why....when I was starting 2nd grade, my Mom followed my bus to school and then she drove away. I stood outside the school crying for quite a while because I didn't know where I was supposed to go. Finally...a teacher saw me standing outside and came out to get me and find out who the heck I was and where I belonged.
I feel terrible that I can't send Alex to preschool to prepare him for starting school, so I'm going to be preschooling him at home. I just hope that he picks up the other things quickly...like circle time and recess and stuff like that. I think I'll start making him raise his hand and ask me to go to the bathroom. Can someone that has had a child in all day kindergarten explain what their day is like? Do they have snacks and naps? What do they do all day? What about lunchtime...how do they handle that?
I need to find a way to get over this anxiety before he does start school...so that I don't traumatize the poor kid.
In other news...I discovered why my sleep aids haven't been working. I got the bottles mixed up and I've been taking stool softener. This might also explain why I lost two pounds last week.