Monday, April 30, 2012

Time Is On My Side

I'm in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life's no fun
All I really gotta do is live and die
But I'm in a hurry and don't know why



Can't be late, I leave in plenty of time
Shakin hands with the clock
I can't stop
I'm on a roll and I'm ready to rock

This has been my theme song...forever.

I have a checklist in my head that must be completed and it needs to be done now.

But why?

The subject of time has been on my mind constantly this week.

At first it was regret, time wasted on a year of Kindergarten that has to be re-done.  Time that I lost sending him to school everyday when he could have been home with me.  On Thursday, I was ready to pull him out of school for the year and say f**k it.  But there are only 20 days of actual school left and we have fun things coming up. Like Field Day....I'm the coordinator.

On Saturday night, I was deep in thought and writing in Alex's journal.  I was trying to explain our choice in a way that he'd understand when he reads it someday; when he's an adult.  I wanted him to know how much we wanted the best for him.

And then it hit me like a ton of bricks!

By having him go to Kindergarten again, I'm giving all of us the gift of time.

Another year to learn and grow. 
Another year with him at my table, on my couch....under my roof. 
Another year to be a family before he heads off into the world and starts his own life.  
Another year to be WITH him.

I was so worried about what he'd be missing out on....that I forgot about everything we'd be gaining.

A year.

15 comments:

  1. YES!!!! If I could go back in time, I would start my little guy at age 6 instead of 5 like I did. I would LOVE to have had that extra year. They leave us way, way too soon.

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  2. What a walk down memory lane. I haven't heard that song in years!

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  3. What a great way to look at things! It's so easy to stay focused on the negative but sometimes seeing the positive side puts all tough decisions into perspective. I love that you're writing a journal for him, he'll cherish that one day!

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  4. So very, very true! I'm glad you found the silver lining. :o)

    And that is a really great theme song, by the way. LOVE Alabama.

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  5. Exactly. Cady's birthday is in December. In Texas that means she missed the cut off for Kindergarten, but in other states she would have been able to go a year earlier. I kind of fretted about it and wondered if I should try to get her in early, but then I realized that the longer it took her to start the longer it would take her to finish and the longer it would be before she left. That made me totally okay with it.

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  6. great way to look at it another year to enjoy him

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  7. that is the perfect way to look at it. and funny: my family has always teased me that that song was my theme song :)

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  8. Oh, Connie - you made me cry! I love your thinking on this!

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  9. That is such a wonderful way to look at things. All three of my girls miss the deadline so I automatically get that extra year for each of them too. I love that!

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  10. Great way to look at it. I should take a lesson from this and apply it in many places in my life.

    You're pretty brilliant.

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  11. What a truly wonderful and inspirational way to look at it! And you are right-- that time is truly a gift.

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  12. Just beautiful. You are giving him another year to be a kid!! It is a gift :)

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