Something More...

**warning**
This post contains lots of run on sentences.

You know how sometimes you are just going along, day after day and you think your life is going well. I mean, your days do kind of run together and if LOST didn't come on in the middle of the week you might not know what day it was but you are pretty happy and don't really have any complaints.

And then someone says something to you and upsets your little apple cart and you take a look at your life and how you are living it and you realize that you have been wearing the same black sweat pants for a week and you can't remember the last time you shaved your legs.


I wrote last week about what my husband said to me.

Don't be a slave to the TV and get out and live your life.

I don't know why but it has really been bothering me. I thought I was living my life. I thought taking care of the kids and house and husband is what my life consists of. I don't often take time for myself....every two weeks I go grocery shopping alone and I take a hot bath with a glass of wine once a week...but I don't ever really do anything FOR ME. For one thing, I hate to leave the kids. I know Calvin can handle it but I feel like I am imposing on him. Isn't that strange?

They are his kids too....so it shouldn't be a big deal for me to go off and Live My Life. Frankly, at the end of a weekday after dinner is eaten and kids are put to bed...I'm exhausted and all I want to do is relax. I can't really imagine going out at 8 o'clock at night for fear of falling asleep somewhere and having the po po call Calvin to retrieve me from wherever I went in search of my life.

The moral of this story is that I am going to TRY to find some things to do for me! Going to the movies with Monica was so much fun and I love movies, so maybe more of that. I desperately want to meet my friend Chrisy in Salt Lake City for lunch and I want to make plans to meet Jen at IKEA. And I really want to go back to Cache Valley and meet Jess! OH and I really really need to go to the dentist.

So, what I am trying to say is....Big Papa....get ready to take care of the kids because Mamas making plans!

EDITED: I have a date with Chrisy in Salt Lake City tomorrow! We are going here for lunch and a glass of wine! I am so excited!!