Monday, February 2, 2009

A Letter to My Heart

" Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart." ~Author Unknown

Dear Heart,

As part of a little project at BlogHer, I am writing you a letter. You have had a rough 38 years and much of it is my fault. When I was a teenager, you were so tender and open that you allowed me to fall in like with a different boy every couple weeks. You didn't know any better, you loved everyone!

As I got older, I didn't listen to you as much and instead I let my head take over. I thought I was being smart. If I had listened to you more...perhaps I wouldn't have committed to relationships that weren't right for me. I gave you away to men that didn't deserve me and they returned you to me in very bad shape. If I had listened to you and had confidence in myself, I would have realized that I didn't need a man to be happy and being with just anyone was a bad idea. I'm sorry for all of the times I got you battered and broken. I'm so sorry I didn't follow you.

You know that I had to build that wall around you and completely shut you out. I just couldn't bare the pain anymore and life seemed bleak anyway. As with most things, time began to heal the wounds that I inflicted on you. I built a nice little life for myself and realized that I didn't need a man in my life but I wanted one and I wanted love. True Love!

You know how hard I worked on myself and I told you many times that things were going to be great someday. I told you that our dreams would come true and someday we would be happier than we ever imagined. You were skeptical. I couldn't blame had been through a lot.

The thing is....I believed everything I was saying.

And then it happened. Love, like I had never known! Fate helped a little and I found the man that I was supposed to be with and you inflated like a balloon... full of love. I listened to you and you were right. I look at Calvin and you flutter. When he and I are ache. When he holds melt!

And if that wasn't enough to completely heal you from the past wounds....I had Alex & Mallory and now you swell inside my chest as if you are too big for my body.

I'm amazed at how far I have come, dear heart. When I think back on all of the pain, and how hopeless things seemed it feels like someone else's life. I can't promise that you won't ache and that you won't break again....but I can promise that I will always trust you.

What is your heart telling you? Are you listening?

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  1. What a wonderful post. It made my heart happy to read it!

  2. Hey there. So appreciate your integrity....I am a firm believer in "Love illumines, designates, and leads the way." :) (Mary Baker Eddy). you are surely proving this with your life. Thanks for sharing with us. :)

  3. Beautiful Letter Connie! I so agree with you - children do have a way at filling up our hearts!


  4. What wonderful sentiments Connie! Beautiful letter!


  5. That was beautiful! I'm not familiar with this project but I loved the post.

  6. Beautifully written. Calvin is a very lucky man.

  7. so sweet, you have such a big heart!

  8. Lovely. You and your loving heart.


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