Time, why do you punish me?
Like a wave bashing into the shore
You wash away my dreams.
Time, why do you walk away?
Like a friend with somewhere to go
You left me crying
I can't get enough done lately. I live with this sense of urgency that no one else in my life seems to have. There are so many expiration dates I'm dealing with...my 40th birthday which feels like the end of the world, Calvin's job (they want him to work nights and weekends...for what?) and the project that he's been working on (people like it, no one wants it). People act like we have all the time in the world...but we don't. The hourglass has been turned over and the sand is running through fast.....
Time is wasting
Time is walking
You ain't no friend of mine
I don't know where i'm goin'
I think I'm out of my mind
Thinking about time
We've started talking about Kindergarten with Alex. He wants to go to school so badly and he's growing up so fast that I'm becoming more and more aware of how little time I have left with him...everyday, all day. I laid next to him in bed the other night and tried to forget that he's already four. FOUR.
Time, you left me standing there
Like a tree growing all alone
The wind just stripped me bare, stripped me bare
Time, the past has come and gone
The future's far away
Now only lasts for one second, one second
Can you teach me about tomorrow
And all the pain and sorrow
'Cause tomorrow's just another day
And I don't believe in time
This beautiful girl here. She moved out of her crib yesterday. Sleeping on a mattress on the floor like a college freshmen. She's got a memory like a steel trap and she's got the attitude of a teenage girl...with her slamming doors and being mad at cha. Thank goodness her anger is shortlived and she's still small enough to curl up on my lap for a cuddle. This time will end too. Soon...I won't be cool anymore and she won't want to be seen with me.
Time, why you punish me?
My horoscope today says: You may not be able to see the path laid out before you in perfect detail, but past experience and instincts serve you well.