Monday, September 28, 2009

Friend Makin Monday~ All I Need

I've been so stressed out the last couple weeks. I can't focus, I'm irritating irritable, I'm desperately trying to find ways to save as much money as I can so that I have a little pad in my bank account should the ax fall. I'm writing collection letters to folks that owe me money and I'm feeling completely guilty for my upcoming trip to Vegas...but it's already paid for...I just need to turn tricks be frugal while I'm there and bring my flask.

I compared it to holding my breath and that is exactly what it feels like.  I can't breathe....

I confided in Calvin (big mistake) that I was stressed out and thinking of visiting the doctor for a little Xanax and he got upset with me and told me not to worry about something I have no control over.  He should know by now that you can't say that to a Mother.  It's part of our job and our genetic make up to worry about what COULD happen.  It's how we prevent bad things (as much as we can) from happening.  I know from first hand experience that Dad's don't think like this...and it drives me to drink insane.

So....I'm going to try not to worry anymore.  UGH...that felt terrible just typing it.  I'm going to try to relax and I'm not going to use a bottle of wine to do it.  Which brings me to the topic for this week's Friend Makin Monday.  Amber wants to know about my favorite things that I can't live without.  This was a great subject because I've been thinking a lot about what we will do if we lose our income and lose EVERYTHING.

These three things...bring me happiness and can be quite affordable if you make them yourself.  I can see it now...I'll be squashing grapes in the backyard of my trailer  van down by the river  tiny home and bottling it...Mommy's Little Helper sounds like a good name for a wine right?





I can't live without little adventures with my children.  But Disney will be out.  Shoot!  I can't afford Disney right now.  Instead we will find FREE activities, parks and go for lots of walks.  That is totally affordable.




One thing that I can't live without...that is like WATER to me.  Is Bobbi.  I love her so much and I'm so happy to have her close by again...I'm going to be heartbroken if we have to move away.

 

But there is really only one thing I need...if Calvin loses his job and we have to sell everything we own and start over.  If we have to live in an apartment and I have to give up my SUV.  If we never get to eat out again and I have to buy the kids' clothes at Target Wal-Mart instead of Gymboree.  If I have to color my own hair and drink wine out of a box....

As long as I have my husband and my children...I have everything I could ever need.




Well, and some coffee.  My family, some coffee and that's all I need.  And some cheese.  My family, some coffee, good cheese...and that's all I need.  Well...and Sushi.  I also need sushi.



dear baby jesus. On this day of atonement, I want to say that I'm sorry that I don't talk very nice about Utah but at this point...I'd really like to stay.  And PLEASE have a chat with that Obama guy and convince him to keep the ARES project.  Seriously.  It needs a little more money and I talked to Alex and Mallory and they would rather pay their future tax dollars on keeping the space program alive than rescuing the auto industry.  thanks!


amen


**I was supposed to post my after pictures of my bedroom today....but much of that projects funding was cut due to the impending doom.  I am still working on a few things but I'm totally NOT done.   As soon as I am...I will post.**

41 comments:

  1. Great list and beautiful pictures!

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  2. Hello, friend on the internet. I completely sympathize with you on the layoffs. My fiance's company will be doing layoffs starting in October. We're contemplating putting $$ down on a place for the ceremony and reception and the thought of dropping that kind of cash with layoffs looming makes me ill. But the catch 22 is that if we don't get a spot now, we won't have one (such are the perils of wedded bliss in the 4th largest US metro area)

    Like you, I am freaking out and the s/o is very calm and rational about it all for the same reason -- he has no control over it. I just keep breathing deeply and trying to remember that it all works out the way its supposed to in the end.

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  3. It amazes me the difference in men and women at times. My husband likes the saying "it is what it is" and it drives me crazy. Just because I can't control something doesn't mean I won't freak out. I completely understand how you feel.

    I am hoping everything turns out great for you. I love your list though. I would have many of the same things on mine.
    Can't you just take Bobbi with you no matter what?!!

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  4. I will keep my fingers and toes crossed for you guys.

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  5. I really hope that the ax does not fall down. Last year we had that same scary feeling...thought my own hubs would lose his job. The fear is indescribable...thinking of losing everything. Luckily his job was saved and I wish the same for you. Thinking positive thoughts...

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  6. Walmart clothes are not that bad. Some are really cute!
    Keep your head up and a glass of wine can sometimes be a good thing.

    Good luck!

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  7. Holy crap! I have some catching up to do with you!!!! It'll all work out fine. I hear you on the worrying though. It is "messing with your nest" and Mamas don't like it when things mess whith their nests.
    (And yes to wine, xanax, cheese and sushi.)

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  8. I am going through a lot of the same panic right now with S and his job and he tells me the same things that Calvin tells you....it drives me nuts! I agree with you, it is our job to worry and in less than a month there will be another person living in my house who costs money (especially if it is a GIRL!!). I try to put it out of my mind, stress isn't good for the baby, but it is impossible! Hang in there and I will email you your gc to Amazon that you won on my blog. I know it isn't much but at least you can put it towards Christmas :) Hang in there!! Hugs!

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  9. Sorry you have been so stressed! I hope everything works out just fine. Your list is great, and yes it is our job to worry. And I always work overtime on it too! ;-)

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  10. Sometimes we have to face hard facts to come up with what is really important. Sounds like you have a good list there to me. And I think that is a great name for a bottle of wine. If you market it to mommy bloggers alone you'll make a mint.

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  11. Great pictures! Sorry to hear you've been so stressed. I hope it all works out!

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  12. Oh Connie, I was so excited to catch up with you, and I find that things are not so great right now. Sending hugs your way, and also prayers that everything works out for you guys. These are scary times.

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  13. my husband always tells me that too! I take Valium and I heart it ;)

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  14. My sweet friend!! Give your worries to God- he'll take the burden! I know that is easier said than done, but it helped me last winter when I was going through this!! I will keep you in my prayers!!

    Happy Monday!
    ~Becca

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  15. These are scary times and I hope that everything works out for your family. Great list!!

    Happy FMM!!

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  16. Oh Connie. I am so so sorry, my dear. I know about how scary times can be right now. My dad is a loan officer, and has had such a hard time that they are having to give up both of their houses. They just moved out of the one next to us last week. I haven't said anything on my blog, but believe me, it has weighed very heavily on me. Next up, is the house that we are living in. We're hoping to stay until the end of the year, and then move back in to our actual house more in the city, which my parents are currently living in. They'll move to my great grandmother's old house.

    I will be saying lots and lots of prayers for you & your family. And that the hubby gets to keep his job.

    Everyone of us can stand to cut back a little in our lives anyhow. Reevaluate, and appreciate.

    ♥ you girl, and I mean that for sure.

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  17. I hate that you have to stress so much :( You're going through a lot and we're all here for you!

    That was a great post. Refreshingly honest and real.

    Love you!

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  18. Anxiety sucks. I can empathize. I get anxiety over stuff that I IMAGINE that COULD happen (but likely never will). Sometimes I just avoid the news and try to keep life fluffy by watching comedies and avoiding stressors. I hope life gets fluffy for you fast :-)

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  19. Great list...Happy FMM!! I love your pictures.

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  20. Hang in there! Love your list and the pic of the kids is awesome!

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  21. Connie, you WILL get through this. You WILL get through this. Trust that God will lead you and that you are in His hands. Praying for you.

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  22. What a great list of things you can't live without! I hope your fretting and worrying is for nothing and that the project Calvin is working on doesn't get cut!

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  23. Connie -
    Good list. I am praying that things work out on the job front for you guys. And I think Momma's Little Helper is a great name for your homemade wine...

    I am so glad that you have Bobbi. It sounds like you guys have a really wonderful relationship.

    XOOX
    Jen

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  25. Great post. Drives me nuts too that Nick is not a worry wart.

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  26. you could always buy the kid's clothes from target instead of walmart - it's like a jumping off point from gymboree - when i go in that store i start to get all panicky b/c there is TOO MUCH and it is all TOO CUTE and i want IT ALL but i have NO MONEY so i buy at TARGET :) or sometimes Baby Gap or Children's place

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  27. I linked over here from Speaking From The Crib.

    My husband tells me that crap all the time, too. It makes me worry more because I feel like I can't talk about it to him.

    I gave up Gymboree, my gay hairdresser, manicures and whole bunch of other crap. The good news is that you'll get drunk faster off box wine. Take some Tylenol before you start drinking 'cause the cheap stuff gives wicked hangovers.

    I'm stalking, er, following you now...,

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  28. I hope it gets better for you soon. Good list though and great post. I will second the kids clothes at Target - way too cute and frugal too!

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  29. I hope things get better for you...but the end of your post said it all. With your family by your side, you'll have MORE than you'll EVER NEED.

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  30. You are absolutely the most really funny person! I mean it. And I don't lie! I love your story and I bet Jesus got your message too. Fingers crossed. Don't worry. Be happy.
    Sandra
    Mathy,Techy,Artsy Fartsy send love from SFTC!

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  31. Connie, I love your list! And I am so glad that you have Bobbi with you, I hope you don't have to move from Utah either. But you are so right, all you need is family and it looks like you have a fabulous one that loves you very much. I also laughed out loud at the thought of you in the back yard smashing your own grapes LOL :) Have a good day!

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  32. I am so there with you, as I think many of us are. You are so right. Looking around and reminding yourself of how "rich" you truly are is the best way to get through the stress.

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  33. Beautiful pictures! Beautiful list! And keeping you and your precious family in my thoughts and prayers, dear friend! We have been there so I can relate to what you are feeling.

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  34. I am with you on this one:) Family is what matters, the rest is nothing, really:)

    I would love for you to stop by the Blog For A Cure Blog Party I am hosting all week long at http://whoknewreviews.blogspot.com!
    Its a great way to get new followers, win some prizes and support the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society!

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  35. I'm back again :) I am spreading some love your way and wanted to let you know that you have an award on my blog. I am sure you have been given this award before but I hope that you will consider it a hug from me! Did you get the GC from Amazon??

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  36. big hugs.. call me if you need to chat. let your hair down in vegas and bring the flask!

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  37. Ok, can I just say I loved this post? You're cracking me up! I'm feeling a bit guilty about the trip to Vegas soon, too. It was all well and good when I had it planned and had plenty of time to save and sell stuff to pay for it, and then Kaylee got super sick and we've got bills up to our eyeballs. Still, I'm so excited, and I'm very much looking forward to hitting the town with ya and consuming massive amounts of caffeine. Can't wait to read more of your blog!

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