I'm Moving On

You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because somebody else has a problem with it. ~ Carrie Bradshaw

I have the most amazing friends. I want to thank all of you that commented on my post and sent me emails on Friday. I've read all of the messages at least 50 times and written at least 10 pages in my journal.

You all had such great things to say and the overwhelming message was...no one has the right to dictate what I can write about.  This is my life and as long as I'm not naming names....I should be able to use this blog as my journal, therapy and way of staying in contact with my friends.

On Friday...I sent emails to the people in my life that I'm having a disagreement with and made all my feelings known.  We are at an impasse.   I am not willing to negotiate because ultimately....I'm protecting the wellbeing of my children and myself.

These last few years of fighting, struggle and disagreement have been really hard on me.  I've gained weight, I'm not sleeping and I can't be the best Mother and Wife to my family with this going on.

I barely lived through having a relationship with an alcoholic (my second husband) and I refuse to do it again.  It might be different if it was just me....but there are two little lives to consider.  In fact, I'm the only one that's worried for them.  My job is to give them the best life.  I take that very seriously!

As of today, I'm putting the past behind me.  This issue that I'm not allowed to blog about is too serious for me to back down, and I can't put anymore energy or time into it.  My children deserve to have a happy, relaxed and fully present Mommy.

I'm moving on.

Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be. ~  Carrie Bradshaw



Thank you for helping me realize that all I have to be is me.  And that if other people don't like it...they can suck it like a juice box!

ME 

I've changed my hair, my clothes, almost
Everything about myself
I can't believe I tried to be somebody I'm not
For someone else, yeah
It took finding you to finally understand
What it's like to be loved for who I am

Me
That's all I have to give
What you get is what you see, yeah
No second guessing, no pretending
With you, all I ever have to be is me

I can laugh or cry, don't have to hide
The way I feel
Rain or shine, by my side proving we've got
A love that's real
An old pair of jeans or an evening gown
You still see the same girl that you found

Me
That's all I have to give
What you get is what you see, yeah
No second guessing, no pretending
With you, all I ever have to be is me

Me
That's all I have to give
What you get is what you see, yeah
No second guessing, no pretending
With you, all I ever have to be is me
All I ever need to be, oh yeah
All I ever have to be is me

Faith Hill